breaks are good, but it's easy to slip into apathy and too much tv watching. i'm trying hard to keep a handle on things but i'm not always successful. (a rainy weekend is the devil!!!) it's hard too feeling like we're losing friends. (to an extent) it was good to hang w/ the shep's this weekend. (even though we didn't buy their daughter a gift, they still let us eat and such) it's so weird how lack of proximity almost instantly creates distance in ways other than geographical. just not going to the same church creates barriers to hang-out invites etc. (no fault with anyone, it's just the way it is.) C is having a hard time with the loss of a particular friendship that started long before we left. not by her choice or by the other persons but because of me and my issues. we are both saddened by the ever increasing distance between us and one of our closest friends. we're not sure what is causing it, but it is very difficult for us. all attempts to reach out have been effectively blown off.
this whole process has been difficult (obviously) but i'd hoped that the friendships wouldn't fade so quickly.
i'm still waiting to see if i'm accepted to uta or not... (i gotta know soon because registration deadline for fall is june 6th.) unfortunately even if i am i may not be able to get the pell grant for the fall semester because 'priority' is given to everyone who gets the FAFSA application in before may 15th. and then us latecomers have to fight over the scraps.
i think all of this has contributed to my general malaise at the moment.
i know this blog is really not designed to be a 'feelings' blog, but i really didn't feel like putting this on xanga or myspace. it seems better since no one ever reads this one.
About Me
- Liles
- Being a self-confessed cultural sponge/observer, I tend to borrow or reflect on things I experience/hear/see. So, the best way I know to describe the way I desire to be is through an ad on the Travel Channel. Yeah, an advertisment. Basically, it says something to this effect: be a learner, an adventurer, a local, a companion, etc etc...just BE A TRAVELER. Don't be a tourist in this life - experience it in all its highs and lows. I want to be that - on the journey to see God's kingdom come, to live in community, to expand my perceptions and worldview. Because in the end, life is too short not to be a revolutionary.
1 comment:
Well, *I* read it. Sometimes, unless Bo gets too long-winded (teasing, Bo! I love you!)
I wish we could've hung out on Sat. I do miss you guys and agree that not going to the same church does put a damper on hanging out. However, if it makes you feel any better, since going to 2 services and the birth of Baby A (J & L's), none of us have been hanging out as couples. I plan to have a get-together next month since we have no midweek group meetings and you are totally invited. I can't wait to hear how much W is talking!
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